“For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith- that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”
I’ve heard this verse all of my life and marveled from a distance what it could mean to me. I knew that it held the treasures of the kingdom in its pages, and I always wanted to reach out and grasp the love that it described so beautifully. However, as human nature tends to do, I turned from that promise in search of my own ability to fulfill my need to be loved.
The story is familiar to all of us that have been reconciled to Christ through faith. We know all too well how quickly we forget that God is the love of our lives. We ask him to bind our wandering hearts to Him, because we are not strong enough to run his race without him holding us every time we fall.
Being challenged to mediate and fast on this verse was something it seemed like my heart had been dying to be asked, while simultaneously scaring the part of me that knew what I was asking for. I was asking the God of the universe to show up and tell me what he thinks of me. I was asking him to be very present in all of the parts of my life, and I wasn’t sure he was ready to see it yet. Despite my fears, I knew it was right to step into the unknown because God is faithful.
Since that decision, God has rocked my world. I have learned that in order for me to begin to experience, understand, enjoy, and accept the greatest love known to man- that first God wanted me to know myself. How astounding is that? He wanted to show me the parts of my heart that had incorrectly believed a long time ago that his love was flawed.
At some point along the way, I had agreed to believe lies about God’s love for me. I felt like I had to protect myself from the world and that He wasn’t big enough to care about my struggles. This past month He has come into those parts of my life and proven himself so faithful and loving. I’m blown away by his goodness, kindness, and grace for me.
I’m so thankful for a God that intimately knows my fears, hurts, doubts. He also knows my heart, what I love, and who I am. I’ve learned to press into Him in all things. He isn’t going to leave, forsake me, or give up on my humanness. Be encouraged that God is with you. That he is a refining fire- he purifies what is not of Him. It’s so good to be in that light and to rest in His good presence.
It’s good to be challenged by our friends, families, churches, and lives. God is with us through it all but maybe it’s a little easier to see Him when we stop trying to be so strong. I’m thankful that his strength is made PERFECT in my weakness. For that reason, I will always rejoice in my shortcomings so that his glory in my life can be seen.
God is good ya’ll. Let Him be.
(Written by Jessica Mathias)